This horrible Covid19 lockdown, continues to shape daily life in so many difficult ways.  But, it has given me the headspace and incentive to share some of my thinky thoughts.  It has offered an opportunity to reflect on how things have changed, so I’m going to try and accept.
A very lovely friend of mine recently said ‘they don't talk to you if you're in a wheelchair‘ and I have felt that.
The road from Walking to Not Walking (so much) is long, windy and very uneven.  It will be unique to each person.  But, I'm a happier, more confident person, sitting down.  Some of the nicest, most genuine people I've ever met have been sitting down; when I’m sitting down, I mean.
This is your journey through your life. Â Overwhelming at times, feelings of loss, sadness, and frustration, all of which are unique to you, are very valid. Â They form part of your personal journey. Â Ignoring them may help for a while, but left for too long they can turn into something very negative.
Don’t see other people struggling, and feel bad for complaining.  It is okay to feel sad, it’s essential to your long term mental health. Face the feelings as they arise, if you can.  Of course, with a family and busy life, you’re not likely to stop the flow of daily family life, to say ‘hello‘ to a feeling, but, simply recognising and acknowledging it to yourself, will allow you to come back to it later, if it’s still there, or not.  Sounds fluffy,  but it works for me. There is something magical about the light and the air, on a blue skied, blossom filled, spring morning.  Makes me want to be immersed in it.  To photograph it; saving it to look at on another day.  If there is something that makes your heart soar, then use that, especially on the days when every bit of you is fatigued and low.  The pure blue backdrop, tucks around the vivid lime green branches, blends of purple seem to highlight the tree's outline.  Fresh, beautiful, slender stems.  Reaching up, to soak up that brilliant sun.  Shedding their stunning blossoms, ready for their next phase.